books man.

so i just finished before night falls. thanks elise. it took a shocking turn of events at the end and well. turns out it was amazing. reinaldo- you are beautiful. i'm so sorry your life was horrible just about every minute you were alive. that's pretty fucking sad. also sad- cuba is the most fucked up thing i have ever read about. i feel so horrible i never knew.

well that's all. i was going to read love in the time of cholera next and i was really excited about it until reinaldo told me he thinks gabriel garcia marquez is overrated and he's a little shit because he's besties with fidel. well reinaldo- you win this time. i'll start a mercy by toni morrison next.

know what sucks?

1. when your grandpa is 84 and you play tennis with him yesterday and then today you're so sore can't move.
2. waking up to baxter throwing up for the second morning in a row but this time you realize it's because he was choking on the bone he was eating last night and maybe we're all lucky baxter isn't dead.


3. when you write 6 checks for $41,666.66 for other people and you're like man can't i just have one?! i work really hard kind of except this morning when i spent the whole morning applying to other jobs.

4. when you have secrets you need to tell people but you haven't done it yet cause there really hasn't been a good time.

4a. like telling my dad i'm moving out.
4b. like telling my mom and my dad i'm dating an octopus.
4c. like telling anyone i'm going to atlanta on friday in case my plane crashes so they
know where i am.

5. when you look up the crime report on the place you're housesitting because police cars were swarming this area two blocks away the other night and you keep seeing police cars in the area and then you immediately regret it because it's way worse than you thought.

heaven

sike!

update

pandora is really sucking at picking songs i like right now.

i just found out this project i'm working on is not due next week. it's due the week after.

my motivation has plunged to never before seen lows.

i already ate all my snacks for the day and now i'm not hungry for lunch.

i have no self control.

i do this everyday i don't know why i keep bringing snacks.

my plans for the night: make a delicious dinner. i have some curry i think i might dabble. drink at least one bottle of wine. alone. it's not sad i promise. catch up on weeds and true blood and sleep.

my eyes hurt ok i'm tired of today and it just started

so excited, so scared.

well it turns out i was right. the apartment was heavenly.

ok that's a lie. it's really old and the building is dirty but it is so much bang for my buck that i can't say no! i applied right away and shabang! it's mine! i move in august 1.

here's everything wonderful about it don't be jealous:

-it's not a studio.
-seriously. it's a legitimate 1 bedroom.
-625 square feet. silly i tell you.
-a real bath/shower
-hardwood floors. they're old as dirt but wood nonetheless.
-a cute little cove for a dining room table
-a private balcony/patio! all my own! don't get too excited it can probably only fit 2 chairs.
-i already ran into another girl who is probably moving into the apartment 2 doors down from mine and probably we're already besties.
-it's in a cute little wooded area between georgetown and AU
-could this be any better?!?!?!?!?!
-only 3 miles from work! 1 mile to georgetown!
-utilities included!
-first month is free!
-hmm it's a little scary to have real bills again.
-i'm also a little scared i might wake up one morning to the building collapsing on me.

pretty much this is the greatest thing that ever happened to me.

radiohead

just downloaded the discography. almost makes work bearable. so fucking in the zone right now. yes i realize it's a little fucked up i download music at work. no i can't stop doing it.

have to skip lunch today to go look at an apartment. it's in heaven so i'm thinking it will be nice.

anne: want to hang out friday?

fuck fuck fuck i hate this job.

bye.

and then he took the metro home.

i always think it's amazing how courageous normal people can be in the wake of a horrific crisis.

i don't think this weekend

could have been any more full of love.

what's wrong anne?

baby got your tongue?

eww. get back to the internet that's gross.

(wednesday)

p.s.

go to ryanforreal.com you didn't hear it from me. sorry yah squared.

FYI, i am for real

i found this posted on craig's list under "education jobs". ha! i think i'm going to apply.
____________________________________________________________

Hi,
I am new to the area and not so good with talking / meeting women.
About me, I am single, 30+ yo higly educated, healthy, good looking with a decent job and back ground.
I need help to find and talk to 20+ yo single white females who are straight, good looking and are single.

What Iam looking for in You?
You should be 20+ yo single / straight decent caucasian woman and understand likes / dislikes
of other women in their 20s. Also have an interest to help a guy to understand 20+ yo
other single women like urself for possible dating / relationship.

I am willing to pay what ever is reasonable hourly rate.
Additionally if I learn well and successful over the time. I will pay generously
in cash or thank you gift, plus you will have a reliable friend that can be useful.
FYI, I am for real, I come from a culture where dating is not a norm.

Please call me for details.

who's this guy

a bunny?

winner of the dance off?

loved by my mom?

my dance partner?

oh yeah, he's my dad.

(tuesday)

i may not be ready for today (tuesday) but i am ready for this. who's with me.

life decisions

sometimes when i need to make an important life decision and i am really torn i look around for signs to give me pointers about my fate.

today i was stressing cause i found this sweet perfect awesome apartment that is so affordable but they want a 2 year lease to start july 1 which is too soon. so? i found this quote at the top of my gmail:

Mohandas Gandhi - "There is more to life than increasing its speed."

and i decided it only seems right to see where life takes me. without the apartment.

thanks gandhi!

thursdays are for

finger tips

stuffing envelopes

and watching immortal beloved.

it wasn't awkward till the naked scenes.

ooze ooze ooze <3<3<3

dante. a poem.

d is for dante. your name. which is ok.
a is for attitude. you've got one.
n is for nancy. alissa's cousin.
t is for tenacious. like your spirit.
e is for ecstacy. which we took together last night.

in all seriousness though, sometimes my love just oozes out of my soul for dante. his recovery has been amazing. my heart melts thinking i was able to make a hurt horse better. especially because they told me it wasn't possible. i'm knocking on wood, but it's looking like i'll be able to ride him again. soon. <3<3<3 ooze ooze ooze

here i come

monday confessions

i still eat pop tarts
but i put them back if there's not enough frosting.
i had a beer before noon yesterday
by myself
actually barkley was there
he had some too.
things got awkward friday
when a coworker shamelessly hit on me
in front of his wifey/girlfriend
for the second time.
i finally shaved my legs.
i discovered a lake in dante's field
which is weird
because i don't think anyone else knows it's there.
but i didn't tell anyone else
cause i kind of like secrets.
i ate potstickers for breakfast on saturday
at 7 am.
i tried to make barkley the big spoon
but it's harder than you think
that said
we made it work.
you know how i said i hadn't checked my voicemail in a week?
i still haven't.
hahahahahahahaha
bye.

this weekend there was a lot of

which raises the question. if an octopus loses a leg does that make it a septipus? i hope so.

if serial dating was on dvr

i'd be on pause right now.

C U Next Time!

boo.com

the hem on my pants came out.boo.com

sisters

i'm the dark one.

yumm

this morning we found a mysterious bag of bagels and cream cheese in the kitchen/copy room. upon further examination, we found a business card from andy at digisource that said: have a great day! thanks andy! i will! man i love being courted. digisource is trying to get us to use them for our large scale copy jobs/mailings/brief preps instead of the stupid company we've been using, which only gives us candy and really bad chocolate at christmas...and they always fuck up. clearly digisource knew i was jewish and that's why they sent bagels.

p.s. the bagel jumped into my mouth when i was trying to take a picture of it and while i was scolding it i took a bite by mistake cause my mouth was moving so that's why there's a piece missing not cause i was so hungry i couldn't wait.

p.p.s. maybe i was so hungry i couldn't wait but don't worry i bit my cheek REALLY hard on my first bite. karma?

little spoon

this morning it was barkley <3

the cactus garden debocle.

once i went to this really awesome flower shop and i found these amazing little cactus gardens. i bought one, and was kind of in love with it, but i was going to visit my dear friend essays who had just lost her job and was making us a feast and i thought i should share my cactus garden love with her to say thank you and sorry about your loss. then she gave it away.

this makes me sad. mostly because she gave it to the stinkiest little smurf that ever existed (santy p).

but also because i thought of santy p the most when i bought it, because surely santy p would love it so much, but then it was full of sand and she was getting on a bus and i thought it would never work. so then i thought it was so cute i had to give it to someone, so i thought surely essays would be grateful for this thoughtful gift.


you know when you give someone a present and you just want them to love it as much as you do but then they give it away and then they read your blog about it and feel bad and try to explain what happened but you don't really care because even though it's in it's rightful place it was still unwanted and that just doesn't seem right because it's the greatest little garden ever and it didn't deserve to be unloved.

so that's really all. happy fucking wednesday.

sometimes you need a little

p.s.

i'd really like to stay and talk but i was out friday and monday and now i have 73 emails to attend to.

p.p.s. that's not a joke. actually 73.

michelle loutoo wilson

so michelle is now michelle loutoo wilson. the wedding was a blast. my brain is mush. i like you.
bye.